This last month I have been learning a lot about what it really means to be knit together with God. My past understanding of what an hour with God should look like has been erased as He teaches me the importance of allowing the Spirit inside of me to know the depth of who He is. God has been shaking me off as though I have sand all over me and he wants me to be able to walk into special places in His house without sand getting everywhere. Through some rough experiences I’m learning that God shakes the things that can be shaken so that the things that cannot be shaken will be all that remains. The things that can’t be shaken feed our Spirits.
I feel as though I’ve been soaking in the rain of His presence while being refined in His fire at the same time. God is emptying me of my ideas of what following and loving Him should look like and pulling me into His presence where His Holy Spirit teaches my Spirit all it needs to know. Our Spirits need to be fed with His presence, it is the only place that the mysteries of His kingdom make sense. Gods kingdom is where all the freedom in the world is hidden. I want to be addicted to God’s presence as I begin to live a life completely lead by the truth of Gods Kingdom known by my Spirit. I want my Spirit to be more tightly sewn to Jesus’ than my mind it to the world. I don’t want to have specific devotional times with God each day, but be aware of His Spirit throughout the day. I want to be a carrier of His Kingdom.
My Spirit comes alive in Gods presence and was created to remain there. The more time I spend with Him, the more I naturally love Him and love people. Its like allowing a plant to grow in its natural habitat, our Spirits grow in the supernatural habitat of Gods presence. “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lords glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.” (2Cor3:17) It is in this place that only His glory matters and all that can be shaken easily falls off. I’m now in a place where God isn’t simply the one I love, but He is of utmost importance to me. I desire to know Him in every way possible and understand the world like He does as His Spirit within me continues to grow.
“It requires no skill nor knowledge to go to God,
but only a heart resolute to turn to him,
and for him, and to love only him.”
-Brother Laurence
Healing Story
This last Sunday I hurt myself while skating with some friends but was able to later experience God’s healing. We had just skated along the river and were on our way back to the car. The parking lot gravel was really rough and loose and my board stopped on a rock while my body went flying, hit the ground, and slid along the asphalt. My guy friends took care of me by cleaning my wounds and taking some rocks out of my arm. I was on my way home and felt so much pain in my arm I wanted to throw up. I got home and was planning on taking a lot of Advil and falling asleep. My roommates had just made dinner with some ministry school friends and they ended up praying for me first. They used very little words when praying, all I felt was the intensity of Jesus’ love. I felt like my friend Nick was actually releasing the compassion and love of Jesus. The pain began to leave my arm as I felt God’s presence. I began to cry. I had never felt God care for me like this. He cared about me so much that he came and took all my pain. Nothing mattered but falling into Jesus’ arms and literally letting Him hold me. He loves us like that. This love was only from one who had searched me and knew me. He knew how to love me.
At that moment about 80% of the pain left and I could easily bend my arm back and forth. Later that night I could feel it healing even more at church. It has been 6 days since I fell and my scab has healed so fast all my guy friends who saw the injury happen have been blown away. Each day as I watch my wound heal at a rapid pace I feel so special. God sees me and loves me and wants to take care of every little thing I think would be insignificant to Him.
